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Weeding Your Birth Story Garden

7/20/2015

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YOUR INNER GARDEN

Weeding is an activity that I enjoy, and also one that brings up inner conflict.  I love the meditative focus of it.  Getting down at root level, amongst a forest of plants, reignites the sense of wonder I felt as a child, exploring the garden from a bug’s eye view, noticing the tiniest details.  But pulling up living, growing plants always makes me feel kind of bad.  Reflecting on this conflict as I pull weeds each year has been good medicine for me.  It teaches me that destruction is a necessary part of creation.  Both are active in the feminine archetype.  As I choose what to discard and envision what I will grow in its place, I am reminded that I can’t hold onto beliefs and dreams that I once had, or that others have for me, that are not relevant to what my soul is now creating.  

When I moved to this house, the flower beds were empty.  I innocently planted St. John’s Wort to fill in some of the space.  I transplanted it from my previous house, where it was the only thing that would live (though it didn’t thrive) in the hard, un-nurturing soil of that place.  Since then, I have been adding plants more consciously, with a certain vision in mind.  Each spring I add plants, move them around as they grow and change shape, and remove some that no longer fit with my evolving plan.  My never-ending task is removing St. John’s Wort, which threatens to take over.  This is a great plant for filling in a space like, say, a freeway median.  It does its job well.  But it no longer works for me because I no longer want to simply fill space.  I want to create the specific vision that I have in my mind.  Still, as I rip it out by the roots, I think what a shame, this plant thrives here; it requires no care.  And those big yellow flowers are kind of nice.  Doesn’t matter!  Allowing this plant to grow means negating what I am creating.  

Weeding is a great time for thinking and connections between gardening and life sprout in my mind:


  • There is nothing bad about a weed.  A weed is just a plant that is growing where you don’t want it to be.  A plant may be a weed in one situation but valuable and desired in another.  You might cultivate dandelions for their nutritious greens and roots, but not want them growing in your lawn. 
  • The type of weed that is most prevalent in your garden is an indicator of the growing conditions. What do the weeds in your inner garden indicate?  
  • A tall weed may seem to be sheltering and supporting a newer, smaller plant, but really it is robbing the new plant of space and nutrients.   When you remove that weed, you may need to give the plant some temporary support until it adjusts to its new, expansive environment.
  • It helps if you get to know their survival techniques.  Do the seeds take to the air or hitch a ride on your clothing?  Does it spread by invisible, underground roots?  Does it protect itself with thorns or poison?  
  • Once you pull them up, you can use turn them into something beneficial like compost or energy.
  • Weeds will pop up again and again. This is not a one-time activity, but continuous work.

YOUR BIRTH STORY

Knowing that they will soon be raising another human being, many pregnant women feel an urgency to sort out their true beliefs and values. As they transition from Maiden (archetypically) to Mother, there are many issues to contemplate.  Who do I depend on for information?  On what do I base my decisions?  How do I balance my needs and my child’s needs?  What is my identity now?  How has my relationship with my partner changed?  How has my relationship with my parents changed?  What is my relationship with my care providers?  What do I need to do to be “good enough”?  Where is my tribe?  What is the cost of “leaving home”?  How do I know these things?

Your birth story garden was planted long ago, when you were a young child.  These plants are so familiar, so well-watered, that they grow effortlessly.  But which ones are weeds?  Which ones give you more personal freedom and which put limits on what you can be? As you prepare to give birth and be born as a mother, what vision is your soul creating and what weeds are competing for root space and sunlight?  

By birth story, I don’t mean the unfolding of events of your birth, which are complex and ultimately outside of anyone’s control.  I’m referring to the meaning that you assign these events - the story that you create and the way it is experienced each time you tell it, each time it is listened to.  Often there is a part of the story that is like a revolving door that you can’t get out of.  

What you tell yourself about the way you acted, the way others treated you, and the interventions that occurred are rooted in the seeds that were nurtured and watered throughout your life.   When we are unaware that we have been watering certain seeds in our birth story garden, our story feels solid, unchanging, monolithic.  If you observe any garden over time, you will see that this is not true.  

By becoming aware of your birth story garden before giving birth, you have the opportunity to weed it - not to change the events of your birth, but to soften and gain more freedom around the way you experience those events.  This is one of the reasons for making birth art in childbirth class.  Fortunately, the garden continues to grow after the birth - and for years after - which means you always have the opportunity to cultivate the seeds of self-love and uproot what doesn’t serve the evolving vision of your soul.  

AUTHOR'S NOTE:

I just came in from mowing my lawn (by which I mean dandelions) and mulling over this post.  I feel I need to clarify that this post is not meant as a prescription for a positive birth or a how-to guide for healing emotional birth trauma.  Rather, I hope that you do your own exploration of the metaphors that resonate with you as you pursue your own creative seeking within.  Happy hunting.  








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    Christy is a doula and Birthing From Within childbirth mentor committed to strengthening families and communities through storytelling/storylistening, meaningful celebration, mindfulness, and reflective work. 

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